It requires deliberate effort, and practice, when continuous waves of doubt and fear chatter in surround sound.
I move from study to hot beverage, on the mat, into a short conversation over the phone, back to posing, and finally to meditation.
My silly ego taunts: "it's not working!"
I'm learning it's not about the result, but consistent action.
TURN TO SPIRIT.
ALLOW LOVE & LIGHT TO LEAD.
Regardless of what I feel, or notice through the avalanche of brain and ego...
SURRENDER AND LET GO!
Words from Adyashanti finally calm the storm, I thought you might enjoy them:
"This universe where you find yourself has been unfolding for billions of years, birthing stars, exploding stars, and then creating out of stardust this magical and mysterious planet we call home. If you start from the beginning and fast-forward, watching the unfolding of Life like a movie, you will see that forms—a planet, a mountain, a ladybug, a human being—continuously appear and disappear.
In the process of all this appearing and disappearing, you have shown up. You have been given the gift of experiencing a tiny slice of this 13.8-billion-year process. What a valuable gift that is! Imagine that there is a single turtle in all the seas of the world, and that turtle surfaces from the water only once every hundred years. Now imagine there is also a single golden hoop floating on the seas, tossed this way and that by the winds and currents. How often would the turtle, on its once-a-century visit to the surface, put its head through the golden hoop? It has been said that to be given a human life is just as rare as that happening.
For a moment, allow your whole being to open into the joy of that miracle. Life has been evolving for billions of years before you arrived, and it will continue long after you depart. For a few precious years you get to experience this constantly unfolding river of Life. The doorway back into consciously connecting with Life is this moment. This is the only moment that matters in your whole life. This moment in which you are reading this book is the place where you can rediscover all of the joy, the creativity, and the Love that is at the heart of Life.
Dip the finger of your attention into the river of your experience by lifting your eyes and simply open to your life as it is right now. See it. Hear it. Fully experience it. This moment is uniquely different from any other moment of your life."